Little Earthquakes

Merry Christmas everyone and Hanukka and Kwanzaa too! Yeah it is about that time again. Freakin A. What a crazy year and i'm sure they'll pass just as fast as this one did! I don't get it, the older I get the faster I grow old. Twenty flippin Eight. Yeah. Not yet married but close. We own a home together and furniture and the whole deal. I definitely feel secure in our future and look forward to many happy years with my main squeeze.

It is funny that some of my good female friends are literally living the "Sex in the City" life. I mean they are newly single and my age and some prospects but... It just seems totally crazy that we aren't all pushing baby carriages complaining about never seeing our husbands etc. The only thing we are pushing is thirty. Not that it is in any bad just not at all what I expected my life to be. I don't feel like I've got "my career" intact either. I guess we never know what road will lead us where.

It is true we live in a way different world than our parents...I just feel like I should be farther than I am now. When will I grow Up? My mom still says that. It is true though, i don't know when I will really feel grown up. My father said that he finally felt the age of maturity at 50. I think about that and I'm not sure what that realization will feel like. The loss of "it seems like yesterday I was in highschool." Cause it does feel like yesterday. I can't imagine when it won't feel like it just happened. I guess when I have kids that are telling me that it feels like yesterday they were in highschool. ha! I can't imagine having kids. I can't wait but i can't imagine molding a young person. Watching them grow from infant to toddler to twenty somthing. It is awesome and agonzing how fast life passes you by.